I wrote my 15 year old self a letter.

All the things I needed to hear and a reminder to myself that I have come a long way.

I know you never thought about who or where you would be at 25. Living one day at a time accepting whatever happens because most of your life you lived with uncertainty. Im here to tell you it does get better. You will become an intelligent, beautiful (inside & out), traveling, good food eating, God loving woman. 

I know right now you are hurt and a little confused by the cards God dealt you, but I promise you it will all make sense.  Everything you have gone through will make you the woman thats writing you this letter. 

I want you to know I love you. Your parents didn’t abandon you, they love you. Forgive them. Not for their sake but for yours because the longer you hold on to those ill feelings the longer you will stay stagnant mentally and emotionally. They wanted whats best for you and whats best for you is living in Maryland. The hurt you are feeling right now will lead you to your career goal to become a child/adolescent psychologist.

I know going to college and your future isn't a priority right now but you will go to college (you wont get into your ‘dream’ college) but where you end up will provide you with a family like no other.

You can be a teenager now. Don’t worry about your sisters more than you worry about yourself thats not your job anymore.

Family members and peers will never ever understand why you are so guarded and ‘angry’ because they will never be able to comprehend all you’ve been through. No matter how many times you try to explain. Stop explaining! Focus on healing and forgiving.

Don't feel embarrassed of your past either. Don’t care about what others think of you. Adolescence is already stressful enough with puberty and trying to figure out your identity. Don’t let opinions of people you wont talk to after high school effect how you feel about YOU. None of this sh*t will matter 10 years from now. Trust me.

Love yourself wholly. Every single thing about you is special. You are a 1 of 1. No one else will love you the way you need to but you

Everything you need is already inside of you.


Yours truly,